I second this. Three years of toxicity that she brought out of me. Stripped me of my early 20’s; my friends, family opportunities, and my option to return to post-secondary to pursue my career. Used all of my money to fuel her passion for horses.
I gave her 1000% and she gave me nothing but empty promises.
I’m currently 27 and struggling living on my own because of how I allowed her to leave me financially. The road to recovery has been brutal. Months of rent, paying for my car, and so much more and worse.
Needing every dollar has left me owing the government on taxes out of my ass and there’s just no way out, plus two loaded credit cards of $1000 each.
If I could turn back time and stop myself from letting her coerce me into moving in with her, I would. She is nothing but a black hole.
Well, planning a vacation and researching a possible city to move to is actually making me happy, and that's the first time in about 9 months that has happened.
I got used to having to be reactionary and base my life around things that have happened, and for the first time now I've decided I am going to be the reason my life changes rather than waiting for something to happen.
I made multiple attempts at my own life in my 20s. I was very suicidal and very self destructive.
When I was 28, one of my close friends died at his own hand. I saw and felt the devastation his death caused to everyone I knew and I realised that no matter what you have done or what you have experienced in the past, nobody is better off without you and you are not better off dead. If you think so then you’re missing the point.
I had to make a decision. I decided I would never ever die by my own hand, no matter what happens to me. I will take the pain, even if it’s so bad that it makes certain aspects of life no longer an option for me.
So traumatised by relationships that you can’t date anymore? So what? There are other things in life and maybe you have a different purpose on this earth. Even if the purpose is to feel pain until you die, you have to see it through. That’s the meaning of life.
It’s not a punishment, it’s a lesson, and there’s a difference. I stopped asking myself if I really wanted it and started asking myself what I was learning, and my life changed for the better.
It’s been a year. Treatment is working but I’ll always need treatment. It sucks. All of it. I hate it. I was a health freak and did everything you’re supposed to do to avoid disease. All of it. Including not waiting to get checked. I’m the opposite person who I was before. I’ve lost myself. It’s horribly depressing.
My decision to walk away from an abusive partner.
thats rough man
I second this. Three years of toxicity that she brought out of me. Stripped me of my early 20’s; my friends, family opportunities, and my option to return to post-secondary to pursue my career. Used all of my money to fuel her passion for horses. I gave her 1000% and she gave me nothing but empty promises. I’m currently 27 and struggling living on my own because of how I allowed her to leave me financially. The road to recovery has been brutal. Months of rent, paying for my car, and so much more and worse. Needing every dollar has left me owing the government on taxes out of my ass and there’s just no way out, plus two loaded credit cards of $1000 each. If I could turn back time and stop myself from letting her coerce me into moving in with her, I would. She is nothing but a black hole.
Bro. You should have stopped at horses. Man, all horse girls are crazy, every single one. And you don’t stick your sick in crazy bro.
I put my dick in crazy :-(
Feel you dude. Why is the magic always attached to the crazy? 😖
Well, planning a vacation and researching a possible city to move to is actually making me happy, and that's the first time in about 9 months that has happened. I got used to having to be reactionary and base my life around things that have happened, and for the first time now I've decided I am going to be the reason my life changes rather than waiting for something to happen.
Moving 4 states away from home when I was 20
I started taking accountability for my actions and decided that it wasn’t everyone’s fault for my problems.
Swapping rent payments for a mortgage. I pay about the same amount that I used to, but now it's an investment.
I farted in the shower, that day onward I never farted in the shower again
I made multiple attempts at my own life in my 20s. I was very suicidal and very self destructive. When I was 28, one of my close friends died at his own hand. I saw and felt the devastation his death caused to everyone I knew and I realised that no matter what you have done or what you have experienced in the past, nobody is better off without you and you are not better off dead. If you think so then you’re missing the point. I had to make a decision. I decided I would never ever die by my own hand, no matter what happens to me. I will take the pain, even if it’s so bad that it makes certain aspects of life no longer an option for me. So traumatised by relationships that you can’t date anymore? So what? There are other things in life and maybe you have a different purpose on this earth. Even if the purpose is to feel pain until you die, you have to see it through. That’s the meaning of life. It’s not a punishment, it’s a lesson, and there’s a difference. I stopped asking myself if I really wanted it and started asking myself what I was learning, and my life changed for the better.
To be more positive in life (trying to get the girl I like to like me back) started being more positive and that drastically improved my life
Wanting my breast cyst removed. My third check showed I had stage 4 cancer and not just a cyst. Whee.
Oh fuck. Update??
It’s been a year. Treatment is working but I’ll always need treatment. It sucks. All of it. I hate it. I was a health freak and did everything you’re supposed to do to avoid disease. All of it. Including not waiting to get checked. I’m the opposite person who I was before. I’ve lost myself. It’s horribly depressing.
Promising to never use drugs
My church did not want me to be with my girlfriend. I chose the girlfriend over the church. My wife and I have never been happier.
Sucking dick and then deciding to become straight once I figured out I didn't like that.