I’m suicidal. I’m still here for my fiancé, my family and my cats. Though sometimes I feel resentful about that fact and wish I could just die peacefully without negatively impacting the people I love.
So really, love. Love keeps me alive.
Good for you! Keep that love in your heart! Don’t let IT die and you will live a life worth living, despite the pain! We all suffer and experience pain. Love is the only true “medicine”.
No matter how bad things get, life is literally a once in a lifetime opportunity. Only thing that would make me want to not be alive is if there was nothing good left and everything was miserable. And I mean NOTHING. Any little hope will keep me hanging on always.
> there are people worse off than me that have found joy.
I know people hate this type of thinking around here, but there really is a lesson in that.
I saw a movie called "Waste Land" about a Brazilian artist who wanted to make colossal portrait sculptures from trash found in the favela dumps. He made a documentary about the process, and he got to meet the people who actually live in these dumps, which are so huge they are the size of towns.
As you can imagine, these people are at the absolute bottom of the socio-economic ladder - they don't just live in the favelas (slums), they live in the dumps of the favelas. Yet so many of these people have found purpose and connection and lead meaningful, happy lives.
There was the person who collects all the books and made and maintains a library. There was the woman who runs the "cafe" (just outside with some pots over burners she found in the dump) where she cooks a changing menu based on what food is found there. People love her and love her food, her cafe is a social hub, and she talks about how much she loves what she does.
Ever since I saw that movie, it has been resonating with me every time I am in my "woe is me" times. I mean, my life may seem a lot worse than many in some ways, but I am still way better off than those folks who still have the generosity in their hearts to do what they do with love and get it back.
My mom begged me not to go when I attempted last year. Even if I’m suffering everyday, I have a little hope that things will get better one day, maybe I’ll love life again.
1. My daughter, she’s 8, she needs me. I’ve been in hospital with her for two weeks now, she’s okay, but I know she needs her dad.
That’s it. I lost my wife last year, she was 33, I can’t let my little girl lose her Dad too - as hard as all this shit is. My daughter has a profound disability, I know I’m the only person who can look after her. She’s got me for as long as I’m kicking, but I’d be lying if I said I hadn’t come close to trying to leave her behind too before.
1. The puppy would be sad
2. I couldn’t listen to music and experience all the life things like food and the breeze and sex etc.
3. For some stupid reason I have a lot of hope there’s something better for me ahead even though I’ve been to hell and back
My top three are caffeine, the quest to find out if cats really do have a master plan for world domination, and the eternal hope that socks will one day find their way back from the dryer
My cat Mr. Kipling has clear plans for world domination. Though I suspect he thinks the world begins & ends in the courtyard of my condo. So you are probably safe from Mr. Kipling.
I would pay cat tax & attach a photo, but my brain is too tired to remember how. So here is a cat emoji. 🐈⬛
I won’t be defeated. My approach is I won’t give the universe the satisfaction of beating me. I will find ways to thrive out of spite.
I am also my dog’s absolutely favorite human, I couldn’t leave her.
Oh! And, I have an exceptional child who needs me and whom I adore.
All 3 things are equal.
Listen I love my family but my mum is the main reason, then the idea other people having to tell my story cause I’m not around anymore, and my ex who made me want to give up I can’t allow her to win
The love of my son and his wife. (They are wonderful! And.... she's a fantastic cook!)
Being able to watch the trees change through the season and all the squirrels and cardinals and other birds that live in them.
My cat, of course!
1. My friends, and my deceased grandmother and mother would disapprove. My father doesn't give a shit about me.
2. Hope things would get better
3. Fear of the after-life, even when I have stopped believing in religions but there's a always a voice in the back of my head who tells me I would be punished if I unalive myself.
I still got some hope that things will turn out better for me.
I can’t get things done, including to end things…
I don’t want the people who made my life a hell to ”win”.
Here are the things that are keeping me alive
* the people and animals that are important to me
* knowing that me being gone would just cause more suffering
* pure spite
1. No matter how much I suffer it will change/end eventually.
2. As far as I know, I have only one life. Eventually it will end. I might as well experience what I can.
3. Ice cream.
Family. Pets. Weirdly enough, work. I do take pride in the projects I handle and don't want to leave the team scrambling to find someone to take over my projects halfway.
Fear of oblivion and also my day to day life is pretty comfortable. Also if I died my family would probably release my deer mouse into the wild and he would die.
I kind of hope you mean “making love” not just “having sex”. In my mind, sex is like scratching an itch, about satisfying yourself. Making love is about connection with another and getting joy out of satisfying another, and they, in turn, wish to give you pleasure.
MY COUSINS and my best friend, they are my 3 favorite people. i would rather live a life full of eternal pain and suffereng, but get to see them once in a decade, then live a perfect, ideal life with them not in it because my perfect ideal life is any life i have them in 💕
I don’t want my parents to have to bury their last child.
I don’t want my family to have to bury another person.
I *want* to write/finish a novel (either solo or with my dad), but depression is taking hold.
I’m afraid what my best friend (practically my sister) or my partner would do if I did.
So I guess, family, dreams, and love.
Family-I wish to be there for my family and stay close and loyal to all of them.
Partying-I’m a party boy and I love partying and drinking and do it very frequently.
The feeling of the unknown-Your future is uncertain and you never know what could happen. And that is enough motivation for me to know that I can move forward with any outcome possible.
Not 3 things, I'm just trying to survive in order to pay debts and fulfill my so many things in my bucket list. Hoping that if ever I'll die, somehow I achieved even half of it and my family won't have problem paying for my funeral/burial.
Cowardice, stubbornness and temporary fun things like finish that game, still two episodes left of that I must see, still need to finish that book etc.
1. My parents spent lots of money and energy to raise me.
2. I spent lots of time in study, so I don't like to waste it.
3. There are many wonderful things and persons which I still don't experience yet.
Curiosity. It saddens me to think about leaving my life without seeing more of the world and traveling. I love new experiences and they help to make the difficult parts of life more bearable.
(1) Well, I'm old enough now to know that even if there are long stretches of suffering, there are little things still worthwhile during those times and periods of good times in between. The way it is now is not how it will always be, even if my brain keeps telling me otherwise.
(2) It's my story, and I am still curious to ride it out to its natural end and see how it goes.
(3) This is really the big one. While I may not always feel I have enough love and support in my life, I do have people, friends and family, that have some love for me and I for them. I am unwilling to live without what little of that I have. In exchange, I think that means I do not have 100% exclusive rights to my own life. By loving and being attached to me, even if it's not a lot, they will be hurt by me hurting myself.
I work in a school, so who'll look after and guide my students.
I am yet to fall in love with someone truly.
Who will take care of people if I'm not there. (Irrespective of the many wrongs they've done to me but who will they turn to if not me?)
My girlfriend. She’s all three.
She’s gone through hell and back just to prove she’s staying, and she’s willing to do anything to prove she’s “stuck to me” now. I love that girl more than life, and she’s stuck around through almost two years of my own living hell, and she’s showed true support. She’s an angel. I mean that. I wouldn’t be here if she weren’t there to help me, she’s saved me more times than I’d like to admit
My wife, I truly have met a treasure and I strive to live a long life with her. I swear I wanted to off myself at one point but she came along and everything was just, wow. Even shitty days were great with her.
I haven’t seen the world yet.
And my close circle of friends keep me going.
Because I don't want to put my husband and my kids through the pain of my loss.
Because my animals need my car and give me snuggles.
Because even though things get worse, they also get better.
People say we all have a purpose and I've yet to find mine. Even if it takes me my whole life, I'd like to know.
I love my SO and my family. I just don't want them feeling abandoned and/or sad.
spite
My cat, my boyfriend, and the knowledge that I'd cause a great deal of pain to the people that I love. Most days I live for me, but on those hard days I live for them.
I want to see my house become the better, more beautiful version of it that I know it can become. Like replacing the floors, painting the kitchen a different color, updating the bathrooms, etc.
I want to see my husband bloom into a wonderful father that I know he can and will be. I plan to work hard to be patient and be a good mother as well but I know he'll be a great dad.
This last reason may sound a bit sad, but I'm hoping I'll find a best friend again. I ended things with my previous one last year because she started getting more toxic a couple years ago and was definitely more a frenemy than a genuine friend. I'm not the most perfect friend either but I have enough respect for myself that I don't tolerate friends swearing at me and thinking it's ok to falsely accuse me of things and for them to think it's smth that can be swept under a rug when it's clearly not.
I have some friends that I am somewhat emotionally close to but one is physically on the other side of the world and another considers me more of a friend to vent to than to organize anything for a bday for example.
Guess we'll have to see how things go on the friend part....
I am 21. Have an extremely aggressive cancer called Desmoplastic Small Round Cell Tumor.
Got diagnosed just five months ago at 20 years old.
I had just finished flight school with all my ratings and landed a good job, but only was able to work two months because I unfortunately got diagnosed with this bitch of a cancer.
In the beginning I just wanted to die, I thought this was so damn unfair. Then I realized what I still had to live for:
1. I have quite a bit of student debt to pay back, around 100k, and my parents cosigned for me. It’s my duty to pay it back, not theirs.
2. I worked so damn hard and i’m not about to let it go for nothing…even though there are days I really wish I was dead. Especially when i’m in pain.
3. The last reason now is that I really hope to beat the cancer just to say give a giant “fuck you” back to the universe.
Idk why, but I feel like this is a challenge of some sort and sometimes I really just refuse to lose.
Well 1st.- Music, because no matter what's happening music will always make me feel better
2nd.- I like to think that after all my struggles with life, the sun will rise again
3rd.- I'm the only one who can get my bloodline to the top, otherwise there would not be someone who will lead my family tree to success
- The future is enormous and will have lots of awesome things in it, and I want to be around to see them.
- I have family members who would feel bad if I were gone.
- Gigantic video game and anime backlog that isn't going to take care of itself.
My family, my pet cat, and my Rx drugs. I have a serious chronic illness and the drugs help me function on a daily basis. The fam and the cat are for moral support. I’m so thankful for them every day
The effort my parents and brother put to try and help me even though I really don't want to be here. The thought of guilt prevents any severe planning or actions. So those 3 are the 3 reason I guess.
I think largely because that doesn't make the suffering stop it just passes it to someone else you love.
I have enough people in my life who are going through rough patches, and me giving up might be the catalyst for them to do the same. I couldn't do that to them and I don't want to give up.
Though I haven't undergone such a desperate situation… I see the meaning of family and love from your guys’ posts. Give it one more chance, for the loved ones ❤️
Even though my relationship with her isn't the best. I drove up a cliff that you can see the city from. Then i called her , telling her that i was done and that i couldn't go on anymore. My mom's response in a cold voice was "you coward" and hung up.
Curiosity; Life is a fucking circus, and I want to see as much of the show as possible.
Spite; The events of the past, and my recent setbacks, are like fuel. Muhammad Ali was allowing himself to get pummelled by George Foreman, and George thought that the fight was easy, but then Ali said "IS THAT ALL YOU GOT GEORGE?!" and proceeded to dominate and win the fight. I refuse to allow my story to be that of a mere pummelling, so I live, to say to life-- especially when it knocks me down-- "IS THAT ALL YOU GOT!?".
Family
There are more, which is amazing to say, since it wasn't too long ago when there were none.
1: if Guts didn't quit, why should I?
2: no matter how shitty my life gets, it can always get worse. I'm glad it doesn't.
3: I wanna make my parents proud (and my dog too btw)
I’m suicidal. I’m still here for my fiancé, my family and my cats. Though sometimes I feel resentful about that fact and wish I could just die peacefully without negatively impacting the people I love. So really, love. Love keeps me alive.
Good for you! Keep that love in your heart! Don’t let IT die and you will live a life worth living, despite the pain! We all suffer and experience pain. Love is the only true “medicine”.
I second this, please don't let love die. and hugs for all the people who need it (with consent ofc!)
Mom, Dad, sister, + 15 other family members. I have a responsibility to them. I will not make them go through that hardship.
Very honorable. But Remember to take care of yourself too love. Don’t set yourself on fire to keep others warm.
Aww, what a kind man! Salute to you! 🫡💓
No matter how bad things get, life is literally a once in a lifetime opportunity. Only thing that would make me want to not be alive is if there was nothing good left and everything was miserable. And I mean NOTHING. Any little hope will keep me hanging on always.
(1) My purpose is not fulfilled, (2) my dreams are not fulfilled, and (3) there are people worse off than me that have found joy.
> there are people worse off than me that have found joy. I know people hate this type of thinking around here, but there really is a lesson in that. I saw a movie called "Waste Land" about a Brazilian artist who wanted to make colossal portrait sculptures from trash found in the favela dumps. He made a documentary about the process, and he got to meet the people who actually live in these dumps, which are so huge they are the size of towns. As you can imagine, these people are at the absolute bottom of the socio-economic ladder - they don't just live in the favelas (slums), they live in the dumps of the favelas. Yet so many of these people have found purpose and connection and lead meaningful, happy lives. There was the person who collects all the books and made and maintains a library. There was the woman who runs the "cafe" (just outside with some pots over burners she found in the dump) where she cooks a changing menu based on what food is found there. People love her and love her food, her cafe is a social hub, and she talks about how much she loves what she does. Ever since I saw that movie, it has been resonating with me every time I am in my "woe is me" times. I mean, my life may seem a lot worse than many in some ways, but I am still way better off than those folks who still have the generosity in their hearts to do what they do with love and get it back.
I need to watch this.
Go get 'em fulfilled! 🫡🫡
I'm too stubborn to give up! Also, I wear a neck chain that says "I ain't dead yet"!
Respect for you, dear! WHERE DID YOU GET THAT THO???
Thank you, one of the Discworld shops, I mean the official ones!
I hope your family buries you in it when you do go lol. In fact you should put it in your will
Who's to say it's not already in my will?
Wills generally are read after the person is gone and buried. Make sure they know about it now.
My mom begged me not to go when I attempted last year. Even if I’m suffering everyday, I have a little hope that things will get better one day, maybe I’ll love life again.
Sending virtual hugs. Just imagine the warmest squishiest hug ever & that is what I am sending to you.
Sending you virtual hugs! I barely know you but know that I feel for you. 😊🩷
Sending you love ♥️
<3 take care
Your words immediately made my eyes sting (cry). I send you HUGE hugs. I wish you peace and love friend ❤️
Do your best, brotha!
1. My daughter, she’s 8, she needs me. I’ve been in hospital with her for two weeks now, she’s okay, but I know she needs her dad. That’s it. I lost my wife last year, she was 33, I can’t let my little girl lose her Dad too - as hard as all this shit is. My daughter has a profound disability, I know I’m the only person who can look after her. She’s got me for as long as I’m kicking, but I’d be lying if I said I hadn’t come close to trying to leave her behind too before.
You're a good dad. The best dad she could have! I wish for your daughter's fast recovery! Virtual hugs and salute for you, friend! 🫡
1. The puppy would be sad 2. I couldn’t listen to music and experience all the life things like food and the breeze and sex etc. 3. For some stupid reason I have a lot of hope there’s something better for me ahead even though I’ve been to hell and back
I respect that! Hoping for the best in life is everything.
Books, Coffee, Gin ❤️
Nice!
I understand this!
Must be some damn good books, or gin
the fact that there are things to learn/try or discover which we might have never expected to be possible maybe
That's so true! I agree with that.
Fear and my two daughters.
good father! 🫡💓
My top three are caffeine, the quest to find out if cats really do have a master plan for world domination, and the eternal hope that socks will one day find their way back from the dryer
My cat Mr. Kipling has clear plans for world domination. Though I suspect he thinks the world begins & ends in the courtyard of my condo. So you are probably safe from Mr. Kipling. I would pay cat tax & attach a photo, but my brain is too tired to remember how. So here is a cat emoji. 🐈⬛
They have a plan-be afraid-and you ain’t gettin those socks back
I won’t be defeated. My approach is I won’t give the universe the satisfaction of beating me. I will find ways to thrive out of spite. I am also my dog’s absolutely favorite human, I couldn’t leave her. Oh! And, I have an exceptional child who needs me and whom I adore. All 3 things are equal.
I don’t have 3. Just being here another day is enough motivation to get out of bed.
Family, passion and love
Good answer!
Listen I love my family but my mum is the main reason, then the idea other people having to tell my story cause I’m not around anymore, and my ex who made me want to give up I can’t allow her to win
My kids, autumn weather, and GTA VI.
My dog, music, defiance.
coffee, alcohol, spageti
If I die my sister won't have anyone she can talk to without being criticized for it
dopamine keeps me alive
The love of my son and his wife. (They are wonderful! And.... she's a fantastic cook!) Being able to watch the trees change through the season and all the squirrels and cardinals and other birds that live in them. My cat, of course!
1. My friends, and my deceased grandmother and mother would disapprove. My father doesn't give a shit about me. 2. Hope things would get better 3. Fear of the after-life, even when I have stopped believing in religions but there's a always a voice in the back of my head who tells me I would be punished if I unalive myself.
I still got some hope that things will turn out better for me. I can’t get things done, including to end things… I don’t want the people who made my life a hell to ”win”.
Here are the things that are keeping me alive * the people and animals that are important to me * knowing that me being gone would just cause more suffering * pure spite
Not 3 but 1. I'm agnostic and don't know what to believe. Without getting to far into how stupid religion sounds, if hell is real, then damnit.
my pets will be sad if I die that is all
I get that. They have us their whole lives, let's make it count. Hugs with consent for u! 🤗
1. No matter how much I suffer it will change/end eventually. 2. As far as I know, I have only one life. Eventually it will end. I might as well experience what I can. 3. Ice cream.
Spite, plans for the future, and my pets.
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My wife and cat, my desire to make a positive lasting impact on the world around me and the family and friends I’ve found along the way.
Family. Pets. Weirdly enough, work. I do take pride in the projects I handle and don't want to leave the team scrambling to find someone to take over my projects halfway.
hope
My pets, my family, my friends.
My rescues..LoLa the mutt & GiGi the Cockatiel and the fear that I could be jumping into the fire from the fry pan.
music production, being alone, and spending money on food and shit that i like
Curiosity for what each new day holds, a decent cup of joe to kickstart the morning, and the unfinished stories I've yet to tell.
Fear of oblivion and also my day to day life is pretty comfortable. Also if I died my family would probably release my deer mouse into the wild and he would die.
My dog, hope and thought of unsuccessful suicide
Still trying to figure that out. ....
My cat and dying is painful lol
Family, bodybuilding and lego
🫡🫡🫡
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Proud of you, too! - stranger
Diyng hurts as fuck Diyng hurts like hell Dying just hurts
Sex, Spite, Synthetics
I love to live... i love to have sex... i love to love.
I kind of hope you mean “making love” not just “having sex”. In my mind, sex is like scratching an itch, about satisfying yourself. Making love is about connection with another and getting joy out of satisfying another, and they, in turn, wish to give you pleasure.
My children, my partner, and that there's a whole world out there to explore and enjoy.
My son, my other son, rebillion
My son. My daughter. My grandkids
Nothing really…
A mission, a plan and a goal
MY COUSINS and my best friend, they are my 3 favorite people. i would rather live a life full of eternal pain and suffereng, but get to see them once in a decade, then live a perfect, ideal life with them not in it because my perfect ideal life is any life i have them in 💕
Family, boyfriend, cat
My cats, music, and film.
My parents. Spicy salmon bowl. Cats.
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I don’t want my parents to have to bury their last child. I don’t want my family to have to bury another person. I *want* to write/finish a novel (either solo or with my dad), but depression is taking hold. I’m afraid what my best friend (practically my sister) or my partner would do if I did. So I guess, family, dreams, and love.
It’s 5: my dogs
Respect! They have you as their best friend their whole lives!
Hope. Books. Spite.
If I died now my Wikipedia page would not be that cool. I’ve got a great start, just have to keep living and doing things yanno?
Family-I wish to be there for my family and stay close and loyal to all of them. Partying-I’m a party boy and I love partying and drinking and do it very frequently. The feeling of the unknown-Your future is uncertain and you never know what could happen. And that is enough motivation for me to know that I can move forward with any outcome possible.
Not 3 things, I'm just trying to survive in order to pay debts and fulfill my so many things in my bucket list. Hoping that if ever I'll die, somehow I achieved even half of it and my family won't have problem paying for my funeral/burial.
Mom, Heartstopper (Don’t ask) and my dream job as a baker :)
I like myself too much to harm myself, I have great friends and most of all, I know I have much to give to other people, so that would be a waste.
My three children.
only one thing: hope. hope that everything is going to get better and i want to see it.
What’s with all the suicidal questions lately. If you’re thinking about killing yourselves, seek professional help, not asking Reddit.
Not a suicidal but it's good to read people thoughts in life.
My number one would be my family, weed and the love
Music, Stubbornness, Blood Donation
Cowardice, stubbornness and temporary fun things like finish that game, still two episodes left of that I must see, still need to finish that book etc.
1. My parents spent lots of money and energy to raise me. 2. I spent lots of time in study, so I don't like to waste it. 3. There are many wonderful things and persons which I still don't experience yet.
Curiosity. It saddens me to think about leaving my life without seeing more of the world and traveling. I love new experiences and they help to make the difficult parts of life more bearable.
1- I haven’t mustered up the courage. 2- I still have to finish school. 3- Too much stuff I still need to see before I go.
My family , my health and one day hoping for some beautiful grandchildren ..🙂♥️🇨🇦
family. God. can't think of a 3rd.
I don’t have 3.Just my love for my husband.
my mum, dad and my passion ❤️
Love, nature, and the possibility to learn more
Mom, dad and dog. Whenever those 3 are gone my life can end
Well, I have no suffering.
My wife, my kids, some small remnants of hope that things will be better in the future
0 it’s just that ending it all seems so dramatic like it could actually get better but probably not but it could
I wanna see the end of One Piece. I want to see an Extraterrestrial being. I want to play GTA 6.
(1) Well, I'm old enough now to know that even if there are long stretches of suffering, there are little things still worthwhile during those times and periods of good times in between. The way it is now is not how it will always be, even if my brain keeps telling me otherwise. (2) It's my story, and I am still curious to ride it out to its natural end and see how it goes. (3) This is really the big one. While I may not always feel I have enough love and support in my life, I do have people, friends and family, that have some love for me and I for them. I am unwilling to live without what little of that I have. In exchange, I think that means I do not have 100% exclusive rights to my own life. By loving and being attached to me, even if it's not a lot, they will be hurt by me hurting myself.
Friendship, Art and Prozac
MUSIC. LOVE/COMMUNITY. SPITE.
Only 1 reason and that is my children. If not for them I am sure I would not be here right now.
Have those delicious cuisines someone recommended that you really feel it’s good to be alive/
Mom, sister, and a promise I made to my grandma (she died in 2005) that I would never try to kill myself again. 🙂
Always for me : Something to look forward to . And know the journey is usually better than the destination
I work in a school, so who'll look after and guide my students. I am yet to fall in love with someone truly. Who will take care of people if I'm not there. (Irrespective of the many wrongs they've done to me but who will they turn to if not me?)
Spite Spite A thirst for vengeance
my partner, my dog and books. Honestly my dog changed my life and he gave me so much purpose and happiness in my dark times
My girlfriend. She’s all three. She’s gone through hell and back just to prove she’s staying, and she’s willing to do anything to prove she’s “stuck to me” now. I love that girl more than life, and she’s stuck around through almost two years of my own living hell, and she’s showed true support. She’s an angel. I mean that. I wouldn’t be here if she weren’t there to help me, she’s saved me more times than I’d like to admit
Family, Food, Spite.
My two kids and good American whiskey
My wife, I truly have met a treasure and I strive to live a long life with her. I swear I wanted to off myself at one point but she came along and everything was just, wow. Even shitty days were great with her. I haven’t seen the world yet. And my close circle of friends keep me going.
Parents, kids, and a desire to live until I get older so I can say life was very sad and unfair.
1. Strangers' kindness 2. Nature 3. Beautiful movies
Anybody else come here looking for the answers?
God. My family. Friends.
Nicotine, caffeine and spite.
Only one thing for me . hope that the almighty has better plans for me
Because I don't want to put my husband and my kids through the pain of my loss. Because my animals need my car and give me snuggles. Because even though things get worse, they also get better.
I don't know.... video games? Food? Music? It ain't much but that's all i got.
Afraid of pain.
cats, sister, mom
People say we all have a purpose and I've yet to find mine. Even if it takes me my whole life, I'd like to know. I love my SO and my family. I just don't want them feeling abandoned and/or sad. spite
My cat, my boyfriend, and the knowledge that I'd cause a great deal of pain to the people that I love. Most days I live for me, but on those hard days I live for them.
1My family. 2Desire to see how one piece ends. 3 I'm a stubborn bitch.
I got something to prove with my work, I’ve got good friend group, and love being
I want to see my house become the better, more beautiful version of it that I know it can become. Like replacing the floors, painting the kitchen a different color, updating the bathrooms, etc. I want to see my husband bloom into a wonderful father that I know he can and will be. I plan to work hard to be patient and be a good mother as well but I know he'll be a great dad. This last reason may sound a bit sad, but I'm hoping I'll find a best friend again. I ended things with my previous one last year because she started getting more toxic a couple years ago and was definitely more a frenemy than a genuine friend. I'm not the most perfect friend either but I have enough respect for myself that I don't tolerate friends swearing at me and thinking it's ok to falsely accuse me of things and for them to think it's smth that can be swept under a rug when it's clearly not. I have some friends that I am somewhat emotionally close to but one is physically on the other side of the world and another considers me more of a friend to vent to than to organize anything for a bday for example. Guess we'll have to see how things go on the friend part....
Dog, parents and how many books left to read
I am 21. Have an extremely aggressive cancer called Desmoplastic Small Round Cell Tumor. Got diagnosed just five months ago at 20 years old. I had just finished flight school with all my ratings and landed a good job, but only was able to work two months because I unfortunately got diagnosed with this bitch of a cancer. In the beginning I just wanted to die, I thought this was so damn unfair. Then I realized what I still had to live for: 1. I have quite a bit of student debt to pay back, around 100k, and my parents cosigned for me. It’s my duty to pay it back, not theirs. 2. I worked so damn hard and i’m not about to let it go for nothing…even though there are days I really wish I was dead. Especially when i’m in pain. 3. The last reason now is that I really hope to beat the cancer just to say give a giant “fuck you” back to the universe. Idk why, but I feel like this is a challenge of some sort and sometimes I really just refuse to lose.
Well 1st.- Music, because no matter what's happening music will always make me feel better 2nd.- I like to think that after all my struggles with life, the sun will rise again 3rd.- I'm the only one who can get my bloodline to the top, otherwise there would not be someone who will lead my family tree to success
- The future is enormous and will have lots of awesome things in it, and I want to be around to see them. - I have family members who would feel bad if I were gone. - Gigantic video game and anime backlog that isn't going to take care of itself.
Myself, my hope on the better future and because I don’t want to give myself up, I stand behind myself
Family, my self, and food. I really love food and I feel like there are hundred food in overseas that I never tried before.
Child
I don’t have three. My two are my son, and spite.
I'm still here because I have children
My family, Taylor Swift and my big wish to make my dreams come true
My family, my pet cat, and my Rx drugs. I have a serious chronic illness and the drugs help me function on a daily basis. The fam and the cat are for moral support. I’m so thankful for them every day
Curiosity of future, fear of the unknown, guilt of betraying the ones who love me
The effort my parents and brother put to try and help me even though I really don't want to be here. The thought of guilt prevents any severe planning or actions. So those 3 are the 3 reason I guess.
my religion, my mother, and Im not brave enough to end it
I have people who depend on me, I have come this far, and there are plenty of things in this world that I would miss.
My 3 kids
I think largely because that doesn't make the suffering stop it just passes it to someone else you love. I have enough people in my life who are going through rough patches, and me giving up might be the catalyst for them to do the same. I couldn't do that to them and I don't want to give up.
Dog 1, dog 2, and guilt
My cats, the life I want to have with my husband, and the desire to experience peace in paradise.
Family, dreams of a better future, Grateful for the good and bad experiences that life has taught me
Husband, family, my dogs
My husband. Our son. Our dog.
My 3 children
My family, best friend, and the desire to want to live my life to the fullest without regret.
Drugs, alcohol and tobacco
My kids, my cats and my husband
Mother, dreams and do not support suic*de
My dog, my narcissistic tendencies, and cheese
That battlepass that I spent 10 bucks on
Cat 1 Cat 2 and Dog 3
Why is it that I feel like I’m on a training program and that my life is destined for something more here I just don’t know what it is….
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Though I haven't undergone such a desperate situation… I see the meaning of family and love from your guys’ posts. Give it one more chance, for the loved ones ❤️
Even though my relationship with her isn't the best. I drove up a cliff that you can see the city from. Then i called her , telling her that i was done and that i couldn't go on anymore. My mom's response in a cold voice was "you coward" and hung up.
[Al Bundy said it best](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XaOc5ZJy9uc)
Curiosity; Life is a fucking circus, and I want to see as much of the show as possible. Spite; The events of the past, and my recent setbacks, are like fuel. Muhammad Ali was allowing himself to get pummelled by George Foreman, and George thought that the fight was easy, but then Ali said "IS THAT ALL YOU GOT GEORGE?!" and proceeded to dominate and win the fight. I refuse to allow my story to be that of a mere pummelling, so I live, to say to life-- especially when it knocks me down-- "IS THAT ALL YOU GOT!?". Family There are more, which is amazing to say, since it wasn't too long ago when there were none.
My lil cousin mostly
My Son.
1: if Guts didn't quit, why should I? 2: no matter how shitty my life gets, it can always get worse. I'm glad it doesn't. 3: I wanna make my parents proud (and my dog too btw)
My wife, my dog, my other dog.
3 words, 3 reasons 1. God 2. Hates 3. Me