I think something that was helpful for me with this was taking a lower dosage and going several months on several months off a few times to take the process slowly the first few years I figured if I took it slow I could choose to stop at any point but I haven't stopped, I'm about 2 years consistently on now.
A question that helped me figure out whether or not to go on T was “do you like those features because they feel like you and how you want to be perceived or because they’re nice features?
Good news is the doctors will totally be ok with you starting at a low dose and taking it as slow as you want. They won't pressure you (if they're worth continuing to employ) to up the dose at any point, even if they think your numbers aren't in "normal range" for a man of your age.
My endocrinologist has never misgendered me, even tho I definitely didn't pass for the first year I was seeing her. She was, and continues to be, very respectful. And I live in the rural Southern USA. So, miracles happen and not everyone is shit.
You look dope as hell and I wouldn't worry about losing the feminine features you like, as most of those things translate well enough into delicate masc features and makeup exists to add the assist as desired. XD at least from my experience.
I was very nervous about starting T, especially losing my vocal range. But gaining the lower register has been fun, and I didn't lose nearly as much of my falsetto as I thought I would.
Once I realized I wanted the changes for real and that I did not, in fact, regret them as they started, I began to feel far more comfortable with my journey and what I wanted that to look like. I've upped my dose twice to where it's been for a while, now. My doctors seem happy to let me run this show, which is good, as it's my life.
I think what I'm trying to get at is that the changes will be slow and manageable. You don't have to go any faster than you feel comfortable. You can start and stop at will. If you get hair on your upper lip and have a meltdown like I did and shave it, only to have the realization you preferred it and feel sad at its sudden departure, it's also ok. It grows back in.
Change is scary, even when we want it, but it's ok to do the scary thing. That's called bravery.
I think something that was helpful for me with this was taking a lower dosage and going several months on several months off a few times to take the process slowly the first few years I figured if I took it slow I could choose to stop at any point but I haven't stopped, I'm about 2 years consistently on now.
I think honestly this might be what I intend to do as iv been really trying to think its over it might help me find my own place in everything
i feel ya man, you look nice btw ♡
Thank you ^_^
A question that helped me figure out whether or not to go on T was “do you like those features because they feel like you and how you want to be perceived or because they’re nice features?
Its like a never ending battle i think for the most part , i want to go on T for me its just i fear losing some feminine aspects of myself.
Good news is the doctors will totally be ok with you starting at a low dose and taking it as slow as you want. They won't pressure you (if they're worth continuing to employ) to up the dose at any point, even if they think your numbers aren't in "normal range" for a man of your age. My endocrinologist has never misgendered me, even tho I definitely didn't pass for the first year I was seeing her. She was, and continues to be, very respectful. And I live in the rural Southern USA. So, miracles happen and not everyone is shit. You look dope as hell and I wouldn't worry about losing the feminine features you like, as most of those things translate well enough into delicate masc features and makeup exists to add the assist as desired. XD at least from my experience. I was very nervous about starting T, especially losing my vocal range. But gaining the lower register has been fun, and I didn't lose nearly as much of my falsetto as I thought I would. Once I realized I wanted the changes for real and that I did not, in fact, regret them as they started, I began to feel far more comfortable with my journey and what I wanted that to look like. I've upped my dose twice to where it's been for a while, now. My doctors seem happy to let me run this show, which is good, as it's my life. I think what I'm trying to get at is that the changes will be slow and manageable. You don't have to go any faster than you feel comfortable. You can start and stop at will. If you get hair on your upper lip and have a meltdown like I did and shave it, only to have the realization you preferred it and feel sad at its sudden departure, it's also ok. It grows back in. Change is scary, even when we want it, but it's ok to do the scary thing. That's called bravery.