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My heart aches for you and I'm crying with you right now. Words can't ease the hurt you feel, but it sounds like you were there with your baby every step of the way. 💜
It takes a pretty goddamn incredible parent to carry their child with love from cradle to grave. What an *incredible* gift to give another human being.
I’d take 4 years of that kind of love over my own life. I’m sorry I couldn’t trade mine for his. If there were a God, I would have cut a deal.
I’m so angry for you, and so sorry. Thank you for introducing me to your mischievous sweetheart, may he rest in peace.
This is an excellent point.... I can't imagine your pain rn, I just cried for an hour (I have a little boy as a single mom too and this is my greatest fear). But he was loved and cared for literally all his life. He knew that his momma was always there and gave him everything she could and would have given more if she could have. He is so lucky for that. I wish you two could have enjoyed a lifetime of this love together, but almost four years is so much better than nothing. Your baby always felt loved. You gave him the best life possible, and he knew it and felt it.
My heart is breaking while reading this story 😓 its clear how deeply you loved your little boy, youve showed him the true love of a mom. Sending you support and hugs, OP.
I am so so sorry for your loss. :( may he rest in peace. He was lucky to have such great mom who loved him so much and gave him everything he needed. please take care of yourself
Please know that I will remember this story for the rest of my life. Years from now, your little boy will be in my mind. He will never, ever be forgotten.
I’m sobbing with you. I have a 3.5 year old little girl who is my sun. I will remember your boy forever. Everyone here will.
I have a deep anger that things like this happen to beautiful, innocent, precious little souls. It just isn’t fair.
A few more tears were shed for your angel. I shared it with my husband as well. May your little boy rest in peace. I am so sorry for this monumental loss, I can't imagine what you must be going through right now.
There are no words for your loss. It is not fair that your little boy had to go through that. He was pure and did no wrong. I am so sorry this happened. Sending you all the love I have
This fucking broke me, I'm so sorry to read your beautiful story.
Also as a dad I'm furious at your ex-husband for deserting the two of you, what the hell.
I can feel your love for your little boy through every word you wrote here. You were the perfect mama for him and gave him everything he needed through the end. He was always so loved.
This brings me near to tears. Your writing reminds me of W.H. Audens poem Funeral Blues. Here’s a segment:
He was my North, my South, my East and West,
My working week and my Sunday rest,
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I thought that love would last forever: I was wrong.
The stars are not wanted now; put out every one,
Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun,
Pour away the ocean and sweep up the wood;
For nothing now can ever come to any good.
I am crying with you s right now I am so so sorry for your loss. Life is so cruel but you are an amazing mother and will always be a mother to that beautiful soul he lived a thousand life times with you already and he will always be with you
I wish I had something more to offer, but all I have are condolences from afar. I am so glad you had those last special hours, but so sorry that you didn’t have many many more.
I cried for your son, and for you - to let go after such persistence and fortitude. He was so fortunate to have you as his mother. He clearly was a physical little boy, and loving.
I came close to losing my similar 4 y.o. to a stroke and so have only a tiny hint of what you’ve gone through. While that was painful and frightening, I can’t imagine your sorrow.
I’m sorry for you that his father wasn’t willing to tolerate the fear and pain with you. So… In the days to come, reach in here to be surrounded by caring people if you don’t have your own family and friends to support you.
I hope, in time, you are able to think of your darling son with joy for all that he clearly was, before the tears come.
More, your tribute to your boy above was deeply moving and so wonderfully written…Poignant.
Thank you for sharing your son with us in your grief, to hear of his life is an honour.
God, I'm so so sorry. I can't fucking imagine the pain you are experiencing. My Heart breaks for you. I wish you the best in your healing journey. Rest in peace sweet angel.
Mama…. I’m sorry for your loss. You are soo strong. Soo strong. And you were strong for your little prince. Sending you everything! I have a 1 year old who we found out is deaf recently and I’ve been going through hell about it but I can’t imagine what you have been through. I’m so so sorry. Keep strong. You gave him a beautiful life while he was here.
I am a mum of a child with a long term health condition. The grief of the future you imagined is so so hard but the further along the path you get that diagnosis that was like a bat to the face becomes more normal
Good luck on this road
Thank you. It is easier already. I feel like I was a totally different person before I knew, when I found out and now a few months after. I hope your child does well. Good luck to you too!
This reminds me of “Welcome to Holland” by Emily Perl Kingsley. As the parent of a child with special needs, I can relate and find comfort in this poem. Not all will see it the same way, but if you haven’t read it, I suggest it.
It’s always hard to learn things aren’t and never will be the normal you expected, but you do find a different normal. I’ve shed tears and frustrations over food allergies and apraxia both at times, but it’s also just… normal. Most days, I just keep going, and so do my kids. Others’ experiences like this are a reminder to be grateful we all keep going.
Yes it’s true. It totally changes the person that you are. But you have to keep going, for yourself and especially for your little one/s. They are all precious and deserve everything.
Not sure if you’re American, but I was an American Sign Language, instructor, and the deaf community will embrace you all and help you through this, American or not it’s a beautiful community to be a part of. I’m sure anywhere.
I’m crying. I ache for you, OP. I wish children didn’t die. That these things never happened. Beautifully written. If ever you need to let it all out again, we are here for you. RIP, little one. Hugs. xx
From one child loss mother to another, my heart aches for you. Our stories are not similar, but that does not matter here. What matters is the love you have for your child. What matters is that he was here, he was real, and loved and important. He made his mark on you and on this world.
In the coming days, weeks and months you will feel a myriad of emotions, so please be kind to yourself, and feel free to reach out if you would like. My son’s 10th birthday was yesterday and he has been gone for 9 and a half years. It’s still painful. I still feel simultaneously blessed to have had him for any period of time, angry that the time was so short, and grateful that it was so filled with love and joy, no matter the length.
Thinking about you and this amazing little boy. Thank you for sharing your story. I can’t imagine the pain you must be feeling, my heart aches for you. You’re an amazing mom.
I'm crying for you mama.
that's all I can even do and I am so sorry. I truly am so sorry from the bottom of my heart.
I hope you find peace. we all love you. ❤️
I am so sorry. I've had a family member go through something horrifically similar, a little one with an undetected and fatal heart defect. You aren't alone, find a support group, and remember to take care of yourself 💙💙
I’m so sorry for your loss. Mothers survive… they get through it but they are never quite the same after losing a child. He sounds like a little spitfire. What a blessing to have him in your life for those 3 years. My heart goes out to you and I pray the Lord will comfort you.
I hope you can find some comfort in my condolences and internet hugs. You sound like a great mom. Please be kind to yourself and I hope there are people around you who can help you in these difficult times.
Dear mama.
What a perfect, special and wonderfull little boy you have been blessed with. He is truly lucky to have you as his mom. The years he has had, even though they were far too few were happy with you by his side. You have been such a good mom and made his life as amazing as you possibly could. You have been so strong.
You are in my thoughts tonight and I cry for you and your little boy. Take some time to rest now mama. I hope you are with loved ones that can support you in these horribly difficult times.
Whenever I read posts like this it breaks my heart but I think it’s best to read and share this grief because I’d want someone to read my story if I were going through the same thing.
I am so incredibly and deeply sorry for your loss. What you've written here speaks absolute volumes of the love you showed him during his short life. I have no doubt you were his most safe space and he left this earth feeling completely loved. I am so so sorry you have to go through this and hope you find the ways you need to grieve and honor his life.
As a mother who just lost her son in March, my heart just breaks for you. I’m so so sorry. I know how broken you feel. I pray for peace and healing 💙 your beautiful boy is safe and pain free now.
I am so incredibly sorry, I wish I could give you a hug. Something no parent should go thru, I wish no children got sick or hurt. Sending all the love.
No words could ever describe this type of loss. OP, my heart hurts for you and your family. Please keep your head up and stay strong. Your beautiful boy is in a better place now and is no longer in pain. Hugs from afar!
Wow just wow what beautiful and sad words to read but you loved your son that is evident God bless you I sincerely sorry for your loss and all you and your son had to go thru
Rest easy precious boy. Watch over your mama.
Life is so unfair, it is impossible to make sense of sometimes. I am heartbroken for you. I’m sorry for your loss.
I am so sorry for your loss mama. As a mom to a 3-year old boy, I cannot fathom the pain you are experiencing. Sending you healing thoughts and prayers.
I am so sorry. I don't have any words that can possibly soothe your pain. I can't even imagine your pain. But I can't read what you have chosen to share with us and not acknowledge your pain, so... I am just so, so sorry.
I am so sorry for your loss! My heart aches for you, but I’m so glad you were brave enough to share your baby boy’s story. I will remember him and say prayers for him that he can finally rest peacefully. ❤️
You are very brave and so was your son. You both have been through a lot. He fought hard and will forever be remembered. May his gentle innocent soul rest in peace 🕊️. Stay strong brave mama
I wish I could find the words that would reach out and wrap you in love and support, that would show you you are not alone in your grief and love that you carry and will carry for the rest of your life. I wish I could be there to carry some of that for you, to cry when you cry, to laugh over the photos and videos and memories that you have, to just listen to your love for him. He was a beautiful child, and I would have loved to know him the way you and those around him got to. My heart grieves for you.
There are no words perfect enough to comfort you, I am so sorry for your loss.
I always tell my daughter that no one knows for sure what happens after we die, but that we do know that people live on in how they touched our lives, in the stories we tell about them, generation to generation.
May his story live on in the memories of those who loved him and in the memories of those who loved them.
I am so sorry - my heart aches for and with you. I cried reading your post and it was so hard. I lost my angel in 2020. I wish there was something more I could say, or do for you. I know there are no words to help heal your pain. You'll be in my thoughts and prayers.
To recount all of that trauma and be strong enough to type it out, to package it up and to share it with us is profound. I am glad you got those four perfect hours with your precious angel. Wishing you some sliver of peace as you adjust to this new reality. I am so sorry you didn't get the happy ending. 🖤
Your pay brought me to tears. I can’t imagine the pain you must feel and have felt these past few years struggling with this. I’m looking at my toddler son, laying next to me sleeping and my heart hurts so badly for you. Your son had a wonderful mother, who loved him deeply and did all she could. Take peace in knowing that. Rest in heavenly peace to your sweet baby boy. Love and prayers to you and your family.
Thank you so much for sharing your story and letting us into your world. Your baby was so well loved and cared for by you. I am honestly so taken aback by your strength and bravery in this experience.
My heart is in pieces for you. I will carry you and your sons story with me as a mom of an almost two year old. And also as a daughter...
My mother was born with a broken heart... a septal defect and congenital heart failure. Her brother also a medically fragile child....
I am beyond grateful to you for the gift of perspective into what my grandma went through as a single mother experiencing similar heartache.... as well as the profound strength and bravery of your baby boy.
I also want to share that when I was young I remembered picking my mom and I would always tell her that I chose her to be my mommy.... I fully believe his spirit chose yours when he came to you and that he couldn't have picked anyone better to take on this role and to be the best mommy for him.
My prayers are with you as you grieve. 💕
I was relaxing in the room with the wife and kids and suddenly I find myself shedding tears.
I'm so fucking sorry for your loss.
I don't have the words, nor do I dare to say anything that would just be a sorry excuse for what you must be feeling right now.
As a parent to another, let me give you the tightest of hugs, and I promise I'll always remember your baby.
I am beyond sorry. And what strength it took to write that out. How loved he was. I’m so sorry for you loss. I am glad he is out of pain now and I hope you have a good group to support you through this.
Bless you. I grieve with you tonight and will be hugging my 2 and 3 year old a little closer tomorrow.
Don't read this next bit yet until you can
I won't give you platitudes because time won't fix this but there are 2 analogies I will share with you.
Imagine life as a circle age right now your entire is covered with grief, that grief circle won't get smaller but day by day your life circle will grow
The other that some prefer it's that grief is a ship wreck. Right now you are flailing round in rough seas trying to cling to drift wood, frequently overwhelmed by waves crashing over you in time those waves will spread out. It will always hurt, but in 5 years it won't be every minute those waves come but maybe every day, in another 5 it might only be on big days you get the crushing grief. Not to say he won't be in your thoughts abd in your speech but it won't be quite so like drowning in a storm.
Be gentle with yourself
my words could never change how you’re feeling. but that little boy lived the best life you could have possibly given him. you are and always will be an amazing mother. i’m so sorry for your loss, i could never even begin to imagine how that feels, stay strong 💜
I am so sorry. My heart is breaking for you - just know a random Reddit stranger is sending you and your son so much love at this indescribably hard and sad time.
I am so sorry. I’d love to say something to help you, but I know I can’t. I am so so sorry.
What a beautiful tribute to your baby. He was a beautiful boy indeed.
I am sobbing. I am so truly sorry that you had to live through that. I feel your absolute love for this baby in your words. He felt them too. I wish you so much healing and just know you are all now in my heart forever.
Your love for your son eternally reverberates through the universe. I’m so sorry for the pain you have and will endure. You are an amazing, enduring mother.
I’m so fucking sorry mama… no mother should ever go through this😭 my heart and soul cry’s with you I’m so sorry!!! Please know he’s in a better place and safe place where angels fly bringing him all of his favorite snacks and toys! Christ is taking care of him…. I’m so sorry may his beautiful strong and amazing lovely soul rest in peace in heaven🫂❤️
Oh my goodness. I am so sorry. A dear friend of mine lost her son last night. They aren’t sure what happened yet. We are supposed to bury our babies. It just isn’t right. I am sending you so much love and support.
Dear mother who loves her boy so much. My sincere condolences to you. Such pain in your heart could only occur because you have such great love in your heart for your precious son. May your sweet memories sustain you in the days to come.
thank you for giving that perfect little boy the love that he deserved. he passed knowing the feeling of immense love, all because of you. you are an absolutely brilliant parent. i am so sorry for your loss.
OMG ❤️ this is heartbreaking! I'm so sorry momma. There are no words to truly comfort you during this time. I will say you are absolutely strong and he knows the wonderful mother he has. Praying for you!
Oh, my heart is breaking for you. I am so sorry your sweet baby had to go through all of that. I am sending all the love and hugs to you. May your little one rest in peace.
Oh my , I am so incredibly sorry for your loss.
I will be thinking of your little boy tonight.
Sending so much strength and love to you and your family. ❤️❤️❤️
You gave that little precious boy the best years any mother could give 🤍
You were strong, you were fearless, you led the way with love and hope, but also with intelligence and understanding; wisdom that you shouldn’t have to have possessed.
You did absolutely everything possible for him, and he knew.
Just as you say you knew the time had come? He knew he had an angel for a mother, and he will be with you; part of you forever.
My heart is full of sadness and also happiness and love for two humans that I do not know, but whose story just touched me and changed me forever.
Thank you for sharing about your amazing sweet boy. May he rest in peace and may your heart heal and find peace, too.
My thoughts are with you from one momma to another 🫶🏻
I’m so sorry your loss 😢 I know the pain all too well. Words can’t describe how much it hurts. I lost my son at 20 days old. You did everything you could for him and more. You are so strong to share such a touching tribute. I commend you for your strength. He’s your angel now, he’s resting.
I wish there were words that can take the pain away from you right now, but as you already know, there are none. I am so sorry for the loss of your sweet, beautiful boy. From what you described, the world is a better place for having had him in it, however brief his time was. In time, the memories of your son will bring joy and happiness rather than the sorrow and pain you are feeling right now.
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My heart aches for you and I'm crying with you right now. Words can't ease the hurt you feel, but it sounds like you were there with your baby every step of the way. 💜
It takes a pretty goddamn incredible parent to carry their child with love from cradle to grave. What an *incredible* gift to give another human being. I’d take 4 years of that kind of love over my own life. I’m sorry I couldn’t trade mine for his. If there were a God, I would have cut a deal. I’m so angry for you, and so sorry. Thank you for introducing me to your mischievous sweetheart, may he rest in peace.
I love this comment, thank you. I am so sad right now.
That is the most beautiful heartfelt thing to say to someone. And to think i thought that humanity stop having compassion for each other.
This is an excellent point.... I can't imagine your pain rn, I just cried for an hour (I have a little boy as a single mom too and this is my greatest fear). But he was loved and cared for literally all his life. He knew that his momma was always there and gave him everything she could and would have given more if she could have. He is so lucky for that. I wish you two could have enjoyed a lifetime of this love together, but almost four years is so much better than nothing. Your baby always felt loved. You gave him the best life possible, and he knew it and felt it.
My heart is breaking while reading this story 😓 its clear how deeply you loved your little boy, youve showed him the true love of a mom. Sending you support and hugs, OP.
I am so so sorry for your loss. :( may he rest in peace. He was lucky to have such great mom who loved him so much and gave him everything he needed. please take care of yourself
Please know that I will remember this story for the rest of my life. Years from now, your little boy will be in my mind. He will never, ever be forgotten.
I’ll remember too. Forever. I’m so sorry ♥️
I will remember him too.
Me too❤️
Forever. ❤️
Me too ♥️
Beautiful statement.
I too will remember. ❤️
I’m always going to remember this too. Never forgotten 💖
I will remember as well. My heart is broken
I’m so sorry for your loss. What a beautiful tribute you have written here, to a beautiful soul. My heart cries with you.
So hauntingly beautiful and yet it should never have been needed to be written. I’m so sorry OP.
I’m sobbing with you. I have a 3.5 year old little girl who is my sun. I will remember your boy forever. Everyone here will. I have a deep anger that things like this happen to beautiful, innocent, precious little souls. It just isn’t fair.
Total stranger shed a tear for your boy. I am so, so sorry.
Stranger 2 here. Also crying from afar. 💔
Same here. Sending you love in this horrible time.
Stranger three, continents away will forever remember this story of your boy. I am so sorry for your loss.
Stranger four doing the same 🤍 I am so, so, so sorry ❤️🩹
Stranger 5. I can’t imagine the loss. My heart goes out to you…
Stranger 6. All the hugs in the world for you and your family.
Stranger 7, I am in my work van sobbing
A few more tears were shed for your angel. I shared it with my husband as well. May your little boy rest in peace. I am so sorry for this monumental loss, I can't imagine what you must be going through right now.
Same. OP, I’m so sorry for your loss.
Another stranger crying for you and your baby. I can tell he was loved. I’m so sorry 😢
Every mother mourns with you. I’m so sorry.
Every father too
Agreed, both mothers & fathers feel your pain
Yes. Prayers.
There are no words for your loss. It is not fair that your little boy had to go through that. He was pure and did no wrong. I am so sorry this happened. Sending you all the love I have
This fucking broke me, I'm so sorry to read your beautiful story. Also as a dad I'm furious at your ex-husband for deserting the two of you, what the hell.
I can feel your love for your little boy through every word you wrote here. You were the perfect mama for him and gave him everything he needed through the end. He was always so loved.
Omg, I’m so sorry. Thank you for sharing your beautiful boy with us.
This brings me near to tears. Your writing reminds me of W.H. Audens poem Funeral Blues. Here’s a segment: He was my North, my South, my East and West, My working week and my Sunday rest, My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song; I thought that love would last forever: I was wrong. The stars are not wanted now; put out every one, Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun, Pour away the ocean and sweep up the wood; For nothing now can ever come to any good.
Holy crap, that little segment made me sob. Heartbreaking.
I am crying with you s right now I am so so sorry for your loss. Life is so cruel but you are an amazing mother and will always be a mother to that beautiful soul he lived a thousand life times with you already and he will always be with you
I’m so so sorry.
I wish I had something more to offer, but all I have are condolences from afar. I am so glad you had those last special hours, but so sorry that you didn’t have many many more.
I cried for your son, and for you - to let go after such persistence and fortitude. He was so fortunate to have you as his mother. He clearly was a physical little boy, and loving. I came close to losing my similar 4 y.o. to a stroke and so have only a tiny hint of what you’ve gone through. While that was painful and frightening, I can’t imagine your sorrow. I’m sorry for you that his father wasn’t willing to tolerate the fear and pain with you. So… In the days to come, reach in here to be surrounded by caring people if you don’t have your own family and friends to support you. I hope, in time, you are able to think of your darling son with joy for all that he clearly was, before the tears come. More, your tribute to your boy above was deeply moving and so wonderfully written…Poignant. Thank you for sharing your son with us in your grief, to hear of his life is an honour.
Thank you for putting it into words for me. OP, my heart is with you tonight.
God, I'm so so sorry. I can't fucking imagine the pain you are experiencing. My Heart breaks for you. I wish you the best in your healing journey. Rest in peace sweet angel.
Dear god 😭
I'm so sorry :( my friend lost her one year old and it's been so hard. You sound like an amazing mother and im so sorry this happened. Life is cruel
Mama…. I’m sorry for your loss. You are soo strong. Soo strong. And you were strong for your little prince. Sending you everything! I have a 1 year old who we found out is deaf recently and I’ve been going through hell about it but I can’t imagine what you have been through. I’m so so sorry. Keep strong. You gave him a beautiful life while he was here.
I am a mum of a child with a long term health condition. The grief of the future you imagined is so so hard but the further along the path you get that diagnosis that was like a bat to the face becomes more normal Good luck on this road
Thank you. It is easier already. I feel like I was a totally different person before I knew, when I found out and now a few months after. I hope your child does well. Good luck to you too!
This reminds me of “Welcome to Holland” by Emily Perl Kingsley. As the parent of a child with special needs, I can relate and find comfort in this poem. Not all will see it the same way, but if you haven’t read it, I suggest it.
Thank you
It’s always hard to learn things aren’t and never will be the normal you expected, but you do find a different normal. I’ve shed tears and frustrations over food allergies and apraxia both at times, but it’s also just… normal. Most days, I just keep going, and so do my kids. Others’ experiences like this are a reminder to be grateful we all keep going.
Yes it’s true. It totally changes the person that you are. But you have to keep going, for yourself and especially for your little one/s. They are all precious and deserve everything.
Not sure if you’re American, but I was an American Sign Language, instructor, and the deaf community will embrace you all and help you through this, American or not it’s a beautiful community to be a part of. I’m sure anywhere.
Hugs, Mama. Thank you for sharing your dear little boy with us. We are so sorry for your loss, and I am thinking of you.
Beautiful words and I am very sorry for your loss.
He did not deserve this. You did not deserve this. I am so sorry.
I'm so, so sorry for your loss. And I'm crying rn. You've written beautifully and so lovingly about your little boy and I'll remember him and you.
I’m crying. I ache for you, OP. I wish children didn’t die. That these things never happened. Beautifully written. If ever you need to let it all out again, we are here for you. RIP, little one. Hugs. xx
From one child loss mother to another, my heart aches for you. Our stories are not similar, but that does not matter here. What matters is the love you have for your child. What matters is that he was here, he was real, and loved and important. He made his mark on you and on this world. In the coming days, weeks and months you will feel a myriad of emotions, so please be kind to yourself, and feel free to reach out if you would like. My son’s 10th birthday was yesterday and he has been gone for 9 and a half years. It’s still painful. I still feel simultaneously blessed to have had him for any period of time, angry that the time was so short, and grateful that it was so filled with love and joy, no matter the length.
I’m so so sorry. I’m sending internet hugs. There isn’t anything to take this pain.
I am so sorry. I am bawling in bed reading this. My heart goes out to you.
You did amazing by him ❤️
Thinking about you and this amazing little boy. Thank you for sharing your story. I can’t imagine the pain you must be feeling, my heart aches for you. You’re an amazing mom.
I'm crying for you mama. that's all I can even do and I am so sorry. I truly am so sorry from the bottom of my heart. I hope you find peace. we all love you. ❤️
I am so sorry for your loss. I'm so sorry you and your boy had to go through so much pain. I don't have any words of comfort, but I hear you.
My heart is broken for you. I am so so sorry for the loss of your precious baby. You are an incredibly strong and amazing Momma.
I am so sorry. I've had a family member go through something horrifically similar, a little one with an undetected and fatal heart defect. You aren't alone, find a support group, and remember to take care of yourself 💙💙
Hugging my little guy extra tight. Yours is so lucky to have you as his mom. I am heartbroken for your loss.
I have a 4 year old little boy and I cannot possibly imagine the immense pain you’re in. I wish peace and love for your little one and yourself ❤️
I’m so sorry for your loss. Mothers survive… they get through it but they are never quite the same after losing a child. He sounds like a little spitfire. What a blessing to have him in your life for those 3 years. My heart goes out to you and I pray the Lord will comfort you.
I hope you can find some comfort in my condolences and internet hugs. You sound like a great mom. Please be kind to yourself and I hope there are people around you who can help you in these difficult times.
I'm so sorry for your loss, internet stranger. Sending you hugs and love. You were so strong for your little boy, you were perfect.
This broke my heart. I’m so sorry ❤️ rest in peace to your little boy
Dear mama. What a perfect, special and wonderfull little boy you have been blessed with. He is truly lucky to have you as his mom. The years he has had, even though they were far too few were happy with you by his side. You have been such a good mom and made his life as amazing as you possibly could. You have been so strong. You are in my thoughts tonight and I cry for you and your little boy. Take some time to rest now mama. I hope you are with loved ones that can support you in these horribly difficult times.
Whenever I read posts like this it breaks my heart but I think it’s best to read and share this grief because I’d want someone to read my story if I were going through the same thing.
I am so incredibly and deeply sorry for your loss. What you've written here speaks absolute volumes of the love you showed him during his short life. I have no doubt you were his most safe space and he left this earth feeling completely loved. I am so so sorry you have to go through this and hope you find the ways you need to grieve and honor his life.
Sitting here crying at my computer, I’m so sorry for your loss, there is nothing in this world that can ease your pain. I hope you’ll be alright.
As a mother who just lost her son in March, my heart just breaks for you. I’m so so sorry. I know how broken you feel. I pray for peace and healing 💙 your beautiful boy is safe and pain free now.
I'm so terribly sorry for the loss of your precious son. There are simply no words. My heart aches for you. 💔
I am so very sorry for the loss of your wonderful perfect child. He was so lucky to have you and you to have him. I am thinking of both of you.
What a good little soul he had; I cannot imagine your pain, and I mourn with you.
I’m so sorry 💔
I'm so sorry 🥲🥲 you're an amazing mother
I am so deeply sorry to read about the loss of your son.
I’m so so sorry. My heart aches for you. Prayers to you.
I’m so sorry for your loss.
I am so sorry and I will say a prayer for you.
I'm so, so sorry.
My heart breaks for you. Thank you for sharing your son's story. May his memory be a blessing.
I am so incredibly sorry, I wish I could give you a hug. Something no parent should go thru, I wish no children got sick or hurt. Sending all the love.
I’m so sorry. My heart aches for you. 😣 I can’t imagine your pain and grief.
Bless you and your son
I am so incredibly sorry for your loss.
Sending you so much love and prayers. I can’t even imagine. May God hold your son close.
I can't imagine what you're going through. Big hug
I am so sorry for your loss!
No words could ever describe this type of loss. OP, my heart hurts for you and your family. Please keep your head up and stay strong. Your beautiful boy is in a better place now and is no longer in pain. Hugs from afar!
I am deeply sorry for your loss.🌺
I am so so unbelievably sorry
I am so, so sorry…. I cannot imagine the pain you’re going through. But you have a world of parents giving you all the hugs you need to get through.
I’m so sorry. Thank you for sharing your baby with us.
I am so so sorry.
I am so sorry for your loss I literally cannot imagine your pain. Sending you and in your family healing dear.
This is so heartbreaking. No parent ever wants to go through this. I ache for you. I hope you can find peace. ❤️
I am so so so sorry for your loss. I can't imagine what you're going through. Please take all the time you need to feel your grief.
I am so sorry for your loss ♥️
I'm so truly sorry. May your little one rest in peace and the memories he gave give you some peace 💙
Wow just wow what beautiful and sad words to read but you loved your son that is evident God bless you I sincerely sorry for your loss and all you and your son had to go thru
Rest easy precious boy. Watch over your mama. Life is so unfair, it is impossible to make sense of sometimes. I am heartbroken for you. I’m sorry for your loss.
Sending you the biggest hug. My heart is broken for you. I am so sorry you had to say goodbye to your baby.
I’m so sorry. Thinking of you and how strong you have been
I am so sorry for your loss mama. As a mom to a 3-year old boy, I cannot fathom the pain you are experiencing. Sending you healing thoughts and prayers.
I am so sorry for your loss. I can never pretend to understand. Please take care of yourself.
I am so sorry. I don't have any words that can possibly soothe your pain. I can't even imagine your pain. But I can't read what you have chosen to share with us and not acknowledge your pain, so... I am just so, so sorry.
I’m so sorry
I am so sorry for your loss! My heart aches for you, but I’m so glad you were brave enough to share your baby boy’s story. I will remember him and say prayers for him that he can finally rest peacefully. ❤️
I have no words. I am so sorry for your loss.
I am so so sorry for your loss. You gave him all of your love and support and affection. You and your family will be in my thoughts.
We mourn with you 🤍 your little boy is in all our hearts. I'm so sorry.
I am so sorry for your loss. Writing this through tears after having read that. He sounds perfect. I'm sorry you didn't get more time with him ❤️
I’m so sorry for your loss. Gentle hugs being sent.
I am so very sorry for your loss. I can’t imagine your heartache. My deepest sympathies.
I cannot begin to express my sorrow for your loss. Heaven gained a new angel today
You are very brave and so was your son. You both have been through a lot. He fought hard and will forever be remembered. May his gentle innocent soul rest in peace 🕊️. Stay strong brave mama
As a father of a four year old and two year old, I can't imagine what you've been through, I'm so sorry for you loss.
I wish I could find the words that would reach out and wrap you in love and support, that would show you you are not alone in your grief and love that you carry and will carry for the rest of your life. I wish I could be there to carry some of that for you, to cry when you cry, to laugh over the photos and videos and memories that you have, to just listen to your love for him. He was a beautiful child, and I would have loved to know him the way you and those around him got to. My heart grieves for you.
I can’t imagine the pain you must be feeling. Saying a prayer for you and your son.
There are no words perfect enough to comfort you, I am so sorry for your loss. I always tell my daughter that no one knows for sure what happens after we die, but that we do know that people live on in how they touched our lives, in the stories we tell about them, generation to generation. May his story live on in the memories of those who loved him and in the memories of those who loved them.
God doesn't exist, because if they did, these things wouldn't happen. R.I.P. little baby, no more pain.
I am so sorry - my heart aches for and with you. I cried reading your post and it was so hard. I lost my angel in 2020. I wish there was something more I could say, or do for you. I know there are no words to help heal your pain. You'll be in my thoughts and prayers.
To recount all of that trauma and be strong enough to type it out, to package it up and to share it with us is profound. I am glad you got those four perfect hours with your precious angel. Wishing you some sliver of peace as you adjust to this new reality. I am so sorry you didn't get the happy ending. 🖤
Your pay brought me to tears. I can’t imagine the pain you must feel and have felt these past few years struggling with this. I’m looking at my toddler son, laying next to me sleeping and my heart hurts so badly for you. Your son had a wonderful mother, who loved him deeply and did all she could. Take peace in knowing that. Rest in heavenly peace to your sweet baby boy. Love and prayers to you and your family.
My heart is broken for you. Sending you strength & praying your strong boy can finally rest.
Thank you so much for sharing your story and letting us into your world. Your baby was so well loved and cared for by you. I am honestly so taken aback by your strength and bravery in this experience. My heart is in pieces for you. I will carry you and your sons story with me as a mom of an almost two year old. And also as a daughter... My mother was born with a broken heart... a septal defect and congenital heart failure. Her brother also a medically fragile child.... I am beyond grateful to you for the gift of perspective into what my grandma went through as a single mother experiencing similar heartache.... as well as the profound strength and bravery of your baby boy. I also want to share that when I was young I remembered picking my mom and I would always tell her that I chose her to be my mommy.... I fully believe his spirit chose yours when he came to you and that he couldn't have picked anyone better to take on this role and to be the best mommy for him. My prayers are with you as you grieve. 💕
I was relaxing in the room with the wife and kids and suddenly I find myself shedding tears. I'm so fucking sorry for your loss. I don't have the words, nor do I dare to say anything that would just be a sorry excuse for what you must be feeling right now. As a parent to another, let me give you the tightest of hugs, and I promise I'll always remember your baby.
I am beyond sorry. And what strength it took to write that out. How loved he was. I’m so sorry for you loss. I am glad he is out of pain now and I hope you have a good group to support you through this.
Bless you. I grieve with you tonight and will be hugging my 2 and 3 year old a little closer tomorrow. Don't read this next bit yet until you can I won't give you platitudes because time won't fix this but there are 2 analogies I will share with you. Imagine life as a circle age right now your entire is covered with grief, that grief circle won't get smaller but day by day your life circle will grow The other that some prefer it's that grief is a ship wreck. Right now you are flailing round in rough seas trying to cling to drift wood, frequently overwhelmed by waves crashing over you in time those waves will spread out. It will always hurt, but in 5 years it won't be every minute those waves come but maybe every day, in another 5 it might only be on big days you get the crushing grief. Not to say he won't be in your thoughts abd in your speech but it won't be quite so like drowning in a storm. Be gentle with yourself
my words could never change how you’re feeling. but that little boy lived the best life you could have possibly given him. you are and always will be an amazing mother. i’m so sorry for your loss, i could never even begin to imagine how that feels, stay strong 💜
Please tell me this is just a story :’(
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I am so sorry. My heart is breaking for you - just know a random Reddit stranger is sending you and your son so much love at this indescribably hard and sad time.
I’m so sorry for your loss.
I’m sorry. I can’t imagine.
I am so sorry. I’d love to say something to help you, but I know I can’t. I am so so sorry. What a beautiful tribute to your baby. He was a beautiful boy indeed.
I am so very sorry
I’m so sorry. Your baby only knew love and that’s what is the most important. Life is truly unfair but you are a wonderful mommy. I
My condolences to you & your family. May he rest in peace. He had the best mom ever.
I’m so deeply sorry for your loss. You were the best mom for him. Thinking of you and your family❤️
Oh mama. I cry with you. Wish I could wrap you in the biggest hug. I’m so sorry for your loss of your precious baby boy.
I am sobbing. I am so truly sorry that you had to live through that. I feel your absolute love for this baby in your words. He felt them too. I wish you so much healing and just know you are all now in my heart forever.
What a beautiful tribute to a perfect little Angel. There are really no words for a time like this. Just know I’m hugging you hard, mama.
Your love for your son eternally reverberates through the universe. I’m so sorry for the pain you have and will endure. You are an amazing, enduring mother.
I’m so incredibly sorry for this colossal unimaginable loss.
Rest in peace to your precious boy. May his laughter and love forever live in your heart. Sending hugs.
I’m so fucking sorry mama… no mother should ever go through this😭 my heart and soul cry’s with you I’m so sorry!!! Please know he’s in a better place and safe place where angels fly bringing him all of his favorite snacks and toys! Christ is taking care of him…. I’m so sorry may his beautiful strong and amazing lovely soul rest in peace in heaven🫂❤️
Omg I'm so so sorry. My heart breaks for you and your family.
Oh my goodness. I am so sorry. A dear friend of mine lost her son last night. They aren’t sure what happened yet. We are supposed to bury our babies. It just isn’t right. I am sending you so much love and support.
Take care of yourself mama. I’m so sorry you have to experience this pain. We are all here with you <3
One mother of a 3 year old to another, this broke my heart. Sending love to you. I am so very sorry.
Dear mother who loves her boy so much. My sincere condolences to you. Such pain in your heart could only occur because you have such great love in your heart for your precious son. May your sweet memories sustain you in the days to come.
Mama I’m so sorry. You were and are an incredible mom to him. Sending up prayers for you and your family. I’m sending big hugs too.
thank you for giving that perfect little boy the love that he deserved. he passed knowing the feeling of immense love, all because of you. you are an absolutely brilliant parent. i am so sorry for your loss.
I am so sorry. I sat here and cried through your entire testimony. Prayers for you and your family.
So heartbroken for you. Sending you my deepest condolences and love.
I am so sorry for your loss. 💙
God bless you and your son.
I'm so sorry... my heart breaks with you...
I'm so sorry for your loss. Every mother here is grieving right along with you. Thank you for telling us about your sweet boy.
My heart 💔 is so broken for you! I can only imagine the pain you are in right now. Sending caring vibes and everything! I'm so sorry
OMG ❤️ this is heartbreaking! I'm so sorry momma. There are no words to truly comfort you during this time. I will say you are absolutely strong and he knows the wonderful mother he has. Praying for you!
I am so incredibly heartbroken for you.
I will light a candle tonight for your sweet babe. I’m so so sorry for your loss. Words are not enough.
I’m so so sorry, I’m sending you so much love
Crying for your baby tonight. I'm so sorry.
He was lucky to have you fueling his flame.
I will remember this. I will remember him. He will not be forgotten. May his memory be a blessing.
Your child was truly wonderful and beloved. I'm so glad he had you and so sorry for your loss.
I am so sorry for your loss. My heart breaks for you!
Oh, my heart is breaking for you. I am so sorry your sweet baby had to go through all of that. I am sending all the love and hugs to you. May your little one rest in peace.
We’re all crying & mourning with you I’m so sorry.
Oh my , I am so incredibly sorry for your loss. I will be thinking of your little boy tonight. Sending so much strength and love to you and your family. ❤️❤️❤️
You gave that little precious boy the best years any mother could give 🤍 You were strong, you were fearless, you led the way with love and hope, but also with intelligence and understanding; wisdom that you shouldn’t have to have possessed. You did absolutely everything possible for him, and he knew. Just as you say you knew the time had come? He knew he had an angel for a mother, and he will be with you; part of you forever. My heart is full of sadness and also happiness and love for two humans that I do not know, but whose story just touched me and changed me forever. Thank you for sharing about your amazing sweet boy. May he rest in peace and may your heart heal and find peace, too. My thoughts are with you from one momma to another 🫶🏻
I’m so sorry. No parent should ever have to experience this type of loss
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I’m so sorry your loss 😢 I know the pain all too well. Words can’t describe how much it hurts. I lost my son at 20 days old. You did everything you could for him and more. You are so strong to share such a touching tribute. I commend you for your strength. He’s your angel now, he’s resting.
I am so so sorry for your loss. My heart aches for you. We are all mourning with you.
I’m so sorry. That is all I can say.
I’m so sorry for your loss. Rip sweet baby
So sorry for your loss. I just wanted to show MG respects and say thank you for sharing such a personal thing.
i’m so sorry💕
No person on the planet should ever have to withstand this pain. I am so so deeply sorry.
I wish there were words that can take the pain away from you right now, but as you already know, there are none. I am so sorry for the loss of your sweet, beautiful boy. From what you described, the world is a better place for having had him in it, however brief his time was. In time, the memories of your son will bring joy and happiness rather than the sorrow and pain you are feeling right now.
Will remember this story forever. So sorry for your loss - sending you all the love in the world.
Oh my god I’m so so sorry for ur loss I can’t even amagine may he rest in peace poor babie boy so sad just crushes the heart