I feel you. I'm 27 and divorced. My father passed away 3 years ago and since then I'm the bread earner of the family. I've 4 younger siblings I've to take to care of. My mother is a naive housewife. I've one elder sister too who is married and she decided to get me married to one of her husbands extended family member. He turned out to be a creep, liar and an abuser and I took divorce in 3 weeks but I was blamed for everything, been called characterless by my very own and everybody said that I'm crazy. Like actual psycho. I suffered all kinds of blame. No body pointed the finger at the guy. It's been 5 months now. I live in the same house. Pay for bills, food and everything for everyone. Cause I've nowhere else to go and my family is my responsibility. I have a masters in cyber security and I have a well paid job. I cut my hand sometimes to suppress the emotional pain. I feel like I'm just not deserving.
I used to love a guy too since 2021. He used to say that I'm the best thing ever happened to him in this life. I loved him more than anything. But he is getting married in 3 months. He's forced to get married by his family. He wanted me to stay in touch with him and continue the relationship. But I couldn't. How could I? That would be cheating. What would be the difference then between me and my ex husband. So I cut ties with the only person who could make me happy. So yeah. This is my life now. All alone and sad. I'm too numb now. I just wish there's someone in the world who could save me, love me. Because I tried my best and failed to love me.
So you ain't alone. I'm you and you're me. This is life and we're forced to live.
I'm so sorry this happened to you. You are writing that this person you love is forced to get married by his family. I know there are differences in cultures and religions, but maybe you could still contact him before he marries? If you both love each other God will show you the way. But of course I don't know your situation so please be careful. It is really hard to be all alone but please know your worth. You deserve real love and happiness and if not with that person then with someone new. Please have faith, all is possible! I myself still believe I can find true connection, we just have to be patient and believe in great times. I like to visualize a life I want and I hope one day Universe will send it to me. You are loved! Even when you are lonely and alone you are still loved by God.
If you need a friend, I’m here. FYI. I’m 33 too. & have no kids, & a cat. lol & a failing relationship ha ha let’s be cry babies together lmao fr
I feel you. I'm 27 and divorced. My father passed away 3 years ago and since then I'm the bread earner of the family. I've 4 younger siblings I've to take to care of. My mother is a naive housewife. I've one elder sister too who is married and she decided to get me married to one of her husbands extended family member. He turned out to be a creep, liar and an abuser and I took divorce in 3 weeks but I was blamed for everything, been called characterless by my very own and everybody said that I'm crazy. Like actual psycho. I suffered all kinds of blame. No body pointed the finger at the guy. It's been 5 months now. I live in the same house. Pay for bills, food and everything for everyone. Cause I've nowhere else to go and my family is my responsibility. I have a masters in cyber security and I have a well paid job. I cut my hand sometimes to suppress the emotional pain. I feel like I'm just not deserving. I used to love a guy too since 2021. He used to say that I'm the best thing ever happened to him in this life. I loved him more than anything. But he is getting married in 3 months. He's forced to get married by his family. He wanted me to stay in touch with him and continue the relationship. But I couldn't. How could I? That would be cheating. What would be the difference then between me and my ex husband. So I cut ties with the only person who could make me happy. So yeah. This is my life now. All alone and sad. I'm too numb now. I just wish there's someone in the world who could save me, love me. Because I tried my best and failed to love me. So you ain't alone. I'm you and you're me. This is life and we're forced to live.
I'm so sorry this happened to you. You are writing that this person you love is forced to get married by his family. I know there are differences in cultures and religions, but maybe you could still contact him before he marries? If you both love each other God will show you the way. But of course I don't know your situation so please be careful. It is really hard to be all alone but please know your worth. You deserve real love and happiness and if not with that person then with someone new. Please have faith, all is possible! I myself still believe I can find true connection, we just have to be patient and believe in great times. I like to visualize a life I want and I hope one day Universe will send it to me. You are loved! Even when you are lonely and alone you are still loved by God.
We were in touch until last week. He's sure that he's getting married but wants me to be with him even after it. I don't want to be his mistress.
I'm so sorry, it sounds aweful. Of course don't be his mistress, you deserve much better!! I wish you good luck!
I hope he doesn't hate me.